Friendship is failure...

There is nobody with you... even if you think they are close friends... that would be there for you anytime... Its not true.

You cant depend on them, but in yourself.

Your family perhaps can be the closest one if you are lucky, but they are not You. They dont undestand you, or feel whatever you are feeling. They can perceive it sometimes, and be helpful now and then... but still, they dont know you.

So, the point is, be happy with yourself, no matter what, you will have to be comfortable being by your self.
Respect your space, take time for you, thats what would bring you anything needed.
Whenever you forget about this, you fall. And you will fall many times, because we were born in a society built up to be together,... we were told to find a couple, friends,... to stay safely around the other ones...
Well, thats not true, just another lie we keep inside.
Through it, through everything away, and take a big breath once you are empty... you will feel yourself as the One, the Self, the witness.
You will feel yourself as the empty space you are, no noise, no disturb, just nothing.
Dont be afraid of this space, as you always do with the unknown... 
breath, breath, breath, until you feel safely home, until you feel your Self

Love,
Leela